2 week nv blog again haha... going on a bi weekly blogging haha... this 2 weeks to me like alot of things happen la... only 3 weeks passed from my bday and i feel as though months haf passed... sometimes i find tt im losing myself... as though i cannot control wad im doing... ariel said that im trying too hard to find favor from those around me... but i think im doing it subconciously... i everytime dunno wad im actually doing and end up in trouble... sigh... had bs ytd wif ariel... then i think she purposely put me at the morning slot so she can talk to me as we walk from city hall mrt all the way to suntec office and she keep on telling me that i muz haf confidence wif myself... she even told me stuff tt i myself dunno... im aware that i haf been using my own abilities to try to do things... and she told me this will not work out right... and she told me bout my mum (i'm on the verge of crying by this time) and also why she treats me like this and wad i should do... lol... i began tearing haha... i wanna know who i am in God... i wanna know wad am i supposed to do next... i wanna know wads my next calling... i wanna be guided by Him... oh then after that i had the Getting Started quiz... then u know the "Jehovah" part? i only remember "Jehovah Rophe" means God is my Healer then it really came out la! i was like stunned for a while haha... Praise the Lord... then i went wif siewleng go tecman at bras basah complex for a while then go home... then at night... i fellowship wif Him... i talked about all the sad things wif Him like ariel advised me to... then i began to really cry this time... then i began to pray for everything... from inside the prayer list to my personal prayer requests... lol one hour passed like so quickly... i really cant wait for cg...

6/24/2005 10:26:00 AM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

lol 2 week nv blog le... soooooo bz lol... and tiring also... o lvl... scouts.... bday chalet.... camp... emerge... until now... waaaaaaaa so tired... slept alot and still tired haha pig lol... anyway... since phil pringle came... my life is really not like last time le... my chi o lvl... it went like a breeze when my frens all said it was difficult... my bday... i finally had a chalet after being rejected by my mum for 3 yrs... camp was good as it was slack but there was still times i was stressed by a particular senior but the other were fine wif me haha... then come to emerge... so excited... didnt realise i could be like this... if it was the me last time... i would not be these open to God and care less bout the people around me and just praise and worship him from deep down my heart... camp had actually made a irritable person... but this emerge... like brought me down... and i realise im no longer the one who is in me, but Christ... my body is just a vessel to contain my spirit and His... sean also taught me alot... come to think of it, i haf been absorbing alot these few days... and i haf a feeling tt something bad is going to happen soon... to some ppl... anyway this weekend haf emerge services... the sermons will be very powerful and will impact and transform lives and the presence of God there will be strong... so if those ppl out there who wanna come and join us or wanna know Christ more, pls tell me asap...

6/10/2005 11:07:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY